Shopping again

I know that I only seem to post about shopping but that seems to me the major activity around here. All I do is shop and laundry and cook and eat. No wonder people in the burbs are fat! (I still have 15 or so baby weight pounds to lose but that is a whole other post)

So what did I do so far today?
I took the list off the fridge and then I went through it assigning each item to the store that I thought I could find it in - Costco, Mrs Green's (the organic market) or ShopRite. Now I am wracking my brain, should I go to Costco before ShopRite or should Costco wait until Thursday. My overriding question is - what if Costco doesn't have waxed paper? or deoderant? or shaving cream? Then I will have to go back to the supermarket.
I long for the days when shopping was something you did on the way to something or on the way home from some activity. Now, it is my day's activity...
How did this happen to me?

What happened to movies? What happened to museums? What happened to real life?
I know I have three babies (14 month old triplet daughters) but shopping is not the only thing there is in life. On Sunday to make my 17 year old stepson less bored, we took him to the mall in Stamford. This was after we passed up looking at the galleries in Silvermine. We chose athletic shoes and sold out iPhones over art!!!! This is not who I am or at least who I was?

My husband said to me this morning when I told him I was going shopping to buy myself something pretty. After searching for kosher organic chicken and meat, I don't have the cycles to look for clothes or shoes or even a purse. I miss going down the block and just picking out food at the Kosher Marketplace. If they didn't have it or if I felt frugal, I would walk the extra two blocks and go to Supersol and then pick up bagels (real ones not the H&H hyped ones) and cheese at the Bagel Basket. I would treat myself to a cinnamon bun if I felt like splurging. Then there was always a Fresh Direct order or a quick run to Food Emporium for everything else and then if I forgot something, I could go to PriceWise....at any time of the day or night.

All this would be done while walking - with a stroller or without... I miss walking. There is not much to see in this development - yes the houses are pretty. There is a whole lot of nature and the circles under my eyes are much better and Syd doesn't cough so much anymore. In Manhattan, you could always go for a walk and see things and people you never saw before. Here you see deer, wild turkeys and little turklets... cute but how many can you see before the novelty wears off.

There was never a time to feel alone. You were never alone. Not that I feel alone here but I do feel lonely. My world has contracted to an inner circle of mostly toothless, wordless little people. I love them with all my heart but I miss the rush of seeing something new and feeling in touch with the world at all times. It is making me very nervous.